INSOMNIA

wrong answer....wrong answer....
wat's she say is truth!
she not tht good n she change....
blame al of us...n she feel she's right...
v together not bcaz v clever or stupid or not helping others or wan get good result...
v together bcaz of d 1st time v meet each other n come together....
this is our choice to choose who with who....
n it did not make changes for last 2years...
so y should v change now??this is d last year ad...
y should u make thg bcome complicated n blame us...
the reasons...u knw i knw...
blame urself b4 blame us...
thk twice b4 say...
caz u r saying urself too but u didnot admit it...

but everythg now is FULLSTOP...
juz let it be is better... n is my choice as i learn from a program that i attended today...




PPL....
now is 5am...
i cant slip...
my mind is full of "bullshit" thgs...
n i hate myself a lot...


today...have a great sunday~
but tonight hv a bad nightmare...
i hv attended a softskill program that offer by UTAR...
i hv fun at there....play games, watch movie, listen songs, get new knowledge....
is about myself, teamworks n social communication....
stop to gv excuses....
everyone can make his/her choice...
every problem hv a solution....
set ur clear target with visible...
you wont feel bored if u participate n interact with facilitator n frens....
now i love softskill more~

but night...
i cant slip at all...
help me up dears...
im waking up to write blog bcaz i scare i really canot slip until morning if i din write al of this out n keeping in my heart....


i not really like to say 'i love u' anymore....
but i will say 'i miss u' more....
this mean....am i stil loving u??
i dono....sometimes yes,sometimes no....

im so emo emo emo....
full of sadness now...
headache....
but the very 1st reason 100% sure is bcaz of u....
i juz wan to stop thking about u...
i juz hate night very much....

STOP STOP STOP!!!!


frenz say...
2ml 12pm sing k....
yes i wan go...
but... can i wake up later???
i really dono wat time i can slip...
if u c my panda eyes...
u will knw i definitely is a late slip ppl....

keeping u beside me is harder than everything...

I GET THE ANSWER

no more problem....
she is good...n maybe im bad... * a little bit bit bad only lo..* =P







*pray hard*
everythg plz be "sun sun lei lei" until my graduate day.... =D

papa got a little bit bit bu she de his car....
caz he need to lend me his car for 1sem...
kekekeke.... XD

selfish....

blog is a good place for me to write my feeling...
after i hv wrote wat i want...
i feel much better now~
yesterday night hv a sweet dream...
no headache...
hmmm...i lik this feel so much~
hope everynight can be lik tht... ^^

but...
fren told me a sad thg...
i really dono y she did lik tht to us...
juz let me feel she is so selfish...
r v doin any thg wrong??
r v not good enough??
r v so stupid?
r v make troubles?
if yes is ok...fine...if no..why??
u make everythg complicated....
taking al the good away n leaved the bad for us...
i really need a acceptable reason...
caz u r my fren...
a fren wil be lik tht to u??
a selfish fren only wil do lik tht to u...
this is wat i knw....
how many fren stil i can trust??
y the longest v knw each other the evil u r.... *in term of fren not u*
i really din thk b4 u will be lik tht...

really a super sad news for me...
she let me c...
frenz r alway fake...
frenz r alway selfish...
he or she can play with u but not helping u....
he or she can hv fun with u but not sharing with u...

friend friend fiend....
who can tel me wat friend means???

tooth fairy

tonight hv a great night!
window shopping n watch movie...
"tooth fairy"
this movie is super nice...
u will laugh from start until the end~
thankz for invite me goin out~
hv fun...
laugh al the way go n bac...
=D

without u i stil can alive n happy~

In a relationship but complicated....

everynight when i wan to fall asleep i wil become emo emo n emo...
im not saying v hv a bad relationship now...
but i hv stop argue-ing al such thg with him...
so im suffer myself only...
maybe he will thk v r good enough now caz i din argue n complaining this n that to him...
maybe he feel so "hang fuk" now...
without phone, argue n only few msg is enough for him....

but me...doesn't he thk for me??
izzit without phone n few msg is enough for me?
juz bcaz i love u i need to suffer al this with myself only...??
r u my bf??i hv no idea...
u juz let me feel i can tel everyone im single now...but not available??
now i rather single than hv a bf who suffering me to accept all this....n listen al to u...

problems hv occured 4 years more...
n now v r nearly 5 years...
so i thk is enough for me...
tired for al of tht..
juz let it be...n not to decide anythg...
continue with u but not feeling u r ther with me...

no love no miss...

Indirectly HURTING Me

u hurt me...
indirectly hurting me...
its almost 1week i cant slip at night...headache every night...
my mind was keep running al ur bad thgs n bad memories...when i juz close my eyes to slip at night...
i cant even stop thking it when the day i had decided to really put u down,let u freedom n not complaining everthg or bad thgs to u...
im suffer...
but u dono....

when i say it out from my bottom of my heart...
u will say i not mature....
u ignore wat i said...
dono how to considerate u...
al my fault...u pushing al d fault to me...
so y do i need to complaining al of it n nth will be change....
im really suffer...
im really sad...
do u knw...?
keep crying alone for nth changes...
u dont even knw anythg....
ur excuses are always more than our communication....




sometimes i really hope to without u n let me free...
this is only d way i wont getting hurt from u...
but now...u r freedom n im silent with bleeding...

im now without al ur accompany n ex-excuses...
if u keep blame-ing me for thking nonsense thg...
y wouldn't u asking urself, y i thking n keep saying al of tht...
d problems are always there
n v wont hv a hapy life~

HE SAID.... =(

Sunday17012010

today i had went bac to kampar...
cleaning my room n arrange al my stuff...
but stil hv many thg i din do...caz im so lazy right now!

my fren is goin to bday 2ml...
so v decided celebrate her birthday later 12am...
hehe....its was great!
she was stil sliping when v reach her house...
her face looks blur n sleepy~
haha...
i thk she have a sleepy n a little bit suprise bday...
we have take many pics when celebrating...
so v all have fun at the midnight....




Monday18012010

its monday...start uni life again....
my 1st class is at 6to8pm...
but it ended at 7pm... *huraayy*
den v went to eat dinner at "dong hai"
to celebrate her bday again...but without birthday cake! *hehe*

P/S: happy birthday MAGGIE~!

Tuesday19012010

there are nth special in today...
juz im having my dinner with diff ppls.... *haha*
n meet many frens at there too.... *suprising*
caz normally i wont meet any other frens during my dinner time geh...
but today diff~
so mayb nextime i should follow "this fren" to have my dinner... XD

he said...
not goin to celebrate my bday with me this year... *sigh*
he cant get the leave...other ppl have taking it...
hmmmm....
den how i gonna celebrate my 21st big big birthday la???
i wan go clubbing...but can i??
but many of my fren are not clubbing kaki...
so how i gonna celebrate at there ne???

p/s: dear....help me up ya...i knw u have the way.... =D

"In Love Again" by 龚柯允(Karen)

wuhoo...
im using d whole afternoon + evening to customize my blog...
it seem simple but waste a lot my time la...
but nvm... i hv A LOT OF TIME now! *haha*

left 2more days i gonna bac kampar n continue my uni life...
aiseh...hate study a lot...
but this is d last year!!
left 3 sem only!
good??bad??
after that i 100% sure i dwn continue master...
if continue i will die not long ago... *hehe*

important thg is~
i need to maintain my result more than 3 la..
is hard for me u knw??
al subjects need to get >B
if any grade C i gonna die...
waste al my effort la wei....
so, plz plz plz...pray for me to get al B is enuf...
(haha)

recently, i love this song very muchi...
"In Love Again" by 龚柯允(Karen) ^^

New blog for a new start

i have change my blog to here...^^

http://baby-love7.blogspot.com/

the old blog i had left it almost 9months... too lazy to update at xanga...
caz it's veryx1000 SLOW!
http://babylove7.xanga.com/weblog/


even i din update at ther i still keep writing my diary in laptop...hehe...
caz i just hope everythg that happen can rmb it now n forever...
so maybe someday when i free will copy n paste all the posts at here or somewherelse..
i need to clean my pendrive!
is full of my diary man!
occupy-ing my pendrive space...haha XD

but during last sem...i hv stop writing my diary...
many thgs is in my mine now...
just hopes someday can write its out~

PLEASE DON'T BE LAZY GALZ...
(i mean me) =P